both mental and physically - it’s mainly going to be long blabbering text posts like I posted earlier - I wasn’t going to make a separate blog for it but I wanted that disconnect from my personal blog for lack of a better term.
If you want the link let me know, if not that’s fine too :) That being said whatever gets written in that blog if I know you in real life I do not want to talk about. Occasionally I’ll cross post a post to this blog in which case then it’s totally fine to talk about. (If that makes sense)
Also the other blog will have pictures of my body on it so that I can do before and afters and all that shit so yeah. There’s that warning too.
I’m the type of person who for some reason always gets involved in these toxic relationships. You know, the friendship where you always seem to be the one on the giving side, where when you are around that person you don’t actually feel better you feel worse. I’m pretty sure everyone has had that kind of friend at one point in their life.
Put under a Read More because it does get pretty wordy.
I dont really have a safe food. Because one thing could work for me one day while the next it makes me horribly sick. Usually I try to stick with chicken of some sort since that seems to stay in a whole lot better. #spooniemarchphotoaday #spooniemarch #day9 #photoaday
I thought I would feel different when I started being more honest with what I’m thinking or feeling - I don’t though. I still worry that whatever I’ve said has hurt the other person and is going to be that final push that makes them leave. I hate feeling like this.
Sometimes the only thing you can do is curl up in a ball, throw the blankets over your head and cry.
If someone ever snaps at me or yells at me or says something mean, I always laugh it off and pretend like it didn’t bother me or hurt my feelings. But inside I’m constantly repeating what they said and rehashing it over and over again.
No matter how much I try to not do that, it still happens.
It’s to the point of where I’m thinking of starting a roll20.net campaign because yes plz.
Thought I was feeling better. Woke up this morning with my hand numb my arm swollen :-(
I didn’t think I had my arm that hard this shit sucks. I hope they clear me to go back to work on Monday.
Nothing will fuck up your twenties more than thinking you’re supposed to have your shit together.
#spooniemarchphotoaday #day7 is a #smile :) #selfie #chubby #glasses - I totally took this picture a couple of days ago when I got my package from Cakes :)